So I obviously haven't been writing here as much as I'd have liked to in the past, but I blame it on campus wifi. For some reason the wifi network streaming through my dorm wouldn't allow me to access gmail or sites like blogspot. So there... and I had a lot of good topics I wanted to bring up too. : ( But seeing as I'm sitting on my bed, in my dorm right now typing this up, obviously the issue has been resolved. And just in time for finals. I need my email and such.
Anywho I was wondering if anyone ever felt like their parents were oblivious to what's goin on with them. When I went home recently I decided to open up a bit to the parentals and they surprised my by saying exactly what I needed to hear. Not what I wanted to need but, what a needed to hear. My mom told me that I'm afraid to try anything that I could possibly fail. And this, I realized is vastly true. I stayed in books because I thought "this is my thing" but in reality I stick to books because I get immediate and good results. I'm a A-B student... but I was beginning to feel that's all there was to me. I have a dynamic personality... I think. But my tendencies to just not try things that I wouldn't be amazing at cripple me. I don't like sports... mainly because when I was little I never was good, and without practicing I stayed that way. I won't go up to certain girls due to fear of rejetion. (This blog makes me sound so much lamer than I am. I promise). So I've made an unofficial pledge to myself to get outside of my box. I've been hanging out with different people, teaching myself to draw, listening to new music (that wasn't too hard to do), and dancing (well grinding on) with girls at parties (I have a bit of a pet peeve on that last one), oh yeah and going to parties. I'm slowly fixing myself..... ya'know re.invented
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