Dancin, Dancin, Dancin, I'm Dancing Machine!!!!

So recently, I decided to join the university's hip-hop dance squad, Unexposed Dance Squad. They are pretty awesome.

I have not seen them much this year, but freshman year I peeped them and their awesome dance moves out. I wanted to do this for many reasons:

1.)I love to dance
2.)I wanted to prove to myself I could dance choreography
3.)I desperately need to get involved around campus
4.)This would make me look more balance on a resume

Maybe those aren't the best reasons, but they're true. I've never danced choreo before though. I went into the first workshop Friday with a positive attitude. I impressed myself with how much I could do, but still needed to work on some stuff. I went back to my dorm and worked out the kinks. Today was a completely different story.

We learned a complete new dance (and auditions are definitely tomorrow) that was just for the guys. This dance has some more complex moves that, without exposure, seem pretty difficult to land. I was flailing about for the entire three hours of the workshop  (except for the small time we practiced the first dance). It got to the point where the vice president of the club sat me down. He was doing his best to be respectful and nice but he probably felt I didn't have what it takes. After explaining to him that I had no prior experience in dance, he said that my main issue was my execution... I know the moves... they just look sloppy.

After that I decided that wasn't even going to show up to the auditions. I was felling pretty low. But after a series of events I managed to host a practice session. Jade (a girl already on the team) and two other girls auditioning for the squad got together in my dorm and we went over the moves. The female dance is INTENSE!!!!(and soooo sexy)... but ours is pretty difficult too. A few guys auditioning passed through. And since one of the auditioning girls was cute we had quite an audience. I got my confidence back and realized how much fun I have when I'm dancing. We danced from 5 - 8 (after a 2-5 workshop) and I was so beat out afterwards. I'm gonna kill that first dance at the audition, and I need to get off this blog to finish practicing the other one...

Auditions begin at 2pm tomorrow.. wish me luck.. and keep me in your prayers

Auditions are

There's a Possibility

Befoer I get to the main point I'm sure only one other person knew that the title is a lyric to a song

Possibility - Lykke Li  (enjoy as you read)

Back to the subject at hand....
Remember when you were a little kid, and everyone used to ask you, "What do you want o be when you grow up?" You may have easily answered a doctor, or a firefighter, or even a veterinarian (like I did).

Now I've been asking myself that same question and it's not so easy to answer. I'm an Animal Science major (pre-vet for the most part) but I've been milling over just getting a PhD and going into research, instead of going to Veterinary school.

Because of my uncertainty, I went to some of my cousins to ask them for advice. They helped me out in one way and screwed me other in another. I intially asked them what types of internships did they take in undergrad school (they are both doctors) to look so impressive for their respective medical schools. They told me about a few things to look into but a new conversation spawned for that. They began to tell me that they think I lack the drive to become a vet. they said, "I feel like you like animals, but I don't see you really caring for them so strongly that you'll work with them like that." In any other case I would probably be offended, but it hit a nerve for me. I've never worked in a pet shop or in a vet's clinic. Hell, i don't even own any pets. I didn't even bother to see the chicks we hatched in poultry science class last semester till it was absolutely necessary.

They proceeded to convince me that I was much more suited to be a doctor. I do have a very inviting personality I suppose, but I don't think i could handle saying, "I'm sorry. We did everything we could, but (insert loved one's name here) didn't pull through. Plus i'm hard on myself with my grades. I'll constantly ask myself what i could have done better on a test or quiz. You think I could handle doing that after working on a patient that died?

But regardless, becoming a doctor is something I could definately see myself doing. No matter what choice I make I'll be Dr. Nzinga (best super-villian name ever). I also see myself working in a lab with animals for research purposes, or having my own veterinary practice.

The future SUCKS.... mainly cause I don't have a clear map to happiness in it. Can some one invent one of those please. "Take right to win the lotto. Take left to meet the girl of your dreams"

OH.. and i have a project for my art apreciation class. it's supposed to be about any established (worked on his/her craft for 20+ yrs.) visual artist. Any ideas???

new.year.new.dorm.new.roomie.new.me

I'm like super late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I'm extremely excited about this me because this is my year to put into action everything I've been trying to do with my life. Last year I was so unhappy with so many things and as a result went searching for some answers. my conclusion is that my unhappiness was solely my own fault. I'm still working on a few things, but my outlook is completely positive.

One of my little pet projects though is my style. When I look in the mirror sometimes I see a little kid. Part of being a grown man is dressing like one. My dilemma: Dressing like a grown man takes grown man money X0. Doesn't matter though I'm working up to it.

Here was my outfit for my first day of classes:

I'm very proud of it. Blue collared button down, straight legged black jeans, white air force ones, and an agile sweater. Oh yeah, I'm sexxxay. lol

Oh and I've really been on my music game lately. I'm really feeling the Noisettes right now. They're this pop, modern jazzy, neo-soul-esque, group. I just got their latest album and digesting it now

Enjoy:

I'm in desperate need of some extra-curricular things to do on campus.... Any ideas???