There's a Possibility

Befoer I get to the main point I'm sure only one other person knew that the title is a lyric to a song

Possibility - Lykke Li  (enjoy as you read)

Back to the subject at hand....
Remember when you were a little kid, and everyone used to ask you, "What do you want o be when you grow up?" You may have easily answered a doctor, or a firefighter, or even a veterinarian (like I did).

Now I've been asking myself that same question and it's not so easy to answer. I'm an Animal Science major (pre-vet for the most part) but I've been milling over just getting a PhD and going into research, instead of going to Veterinary school.

Because of my uncertainty, I went to some of my cousins to ask them for advice. They helped me out in one way and screwed me other in another. I intially asked them what types of internships did they take in undergrad school (they are both doctors) to look so impressive for their respective medical schools. They told me about a few things to look into but a new conversation spawned for that. They began to tell me that they think I lack the drive to become a vet. they said, "I feel like you like animals, but I don't see you really caring for them so strongly that you'll work with them like that." In any other case I would probably be offended, but it hit a nerve for me. I've never worked in a pet shop or in a vet's clinic. Hell, i don't even own any pets. I didn't even bother to see the chicks we hatched in poultry science class last semester till it was absolutely necessary.

They proceeded to convince me that I was much more suited to be a doctor. I do have a very inviting personality I suppose, but I don't think i could handle saying, "I'm sorry. We did everything we could, but (insert loved one's name here) didn't pull through. Plus i'm hard on myself with my grades. I'll constantly ask myself what i could have done better on a test or quiz. You think I could handle doing that after working on a patient that died?

But regardless, becoming a doctor is something I could definately see myself doing. No matter what choice I make I'll be Dr. Nzinga (best super-villian name ever). I also see myself working in a lab with animals for research purposes, or having my own veterinary practice.

The future SUCKS.... mainly cause I don't have a clear map to happiness in it. Can some one invent one of those please. "Take right to win the lotto. Take left to meet the girl of your dreams"

OH.. and i have a project for my art apreciation class. it's supposed to be about any established (worked on his/her craft for 20+ yrs.) visual artist. Any ideas???